Just When You Thought You Knew It All...

All We Are is Dust in the Wind ~**~*~~~~

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 17:58:05 GMT

so since the last post .... things are still going good at Grand Valley.... i've discovered that my Government class is gunna kill me... it's NOTHING like last year's government.... sad thing that my high school government taught memore than my college course...

.... right now i'd do just about ANYTHING to retake government with Mrs. Masen!!!

i miss Brandy still...can't lie to ya...i wish i could kidnap her and make her stay here lol <3

we won our first football game.... we're just sweet like that pretty much! GV...SU... are you Blue...Hells Yes...

well me and tommy are officially together... i guess all the worries since last time got thrown away with one conversation in one night... he's good like that i guess

.... thanks for all the comments of support... kinda wish i knew who left em though :-/

good golly.... Chris, Lauren, & Stacey come to Grand Valley in 3 flippin days.... i'm so excited.... like to the maximum level of excitement that one could be at lol !!!!!!! =)

randoms :
well i miss some friends...
miss the family..... want vanessa here
i love my baba ga nush

& you can leave em if you'd like <3

Are You Blue ?!?

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 07:11:20 GMT

* So my first week of college has come and gone....it's been quite overwhelming & ...extremely fun lol *

My first night i went out with Nick & Steve.... & it was a great welcoming to Grand Valley to say the least ! <3 those boys

I spend lots of time with Pat and Tommy..... Pat popped my peach lol and i love him to death and Tommy is the best as usual

i love the Foley people at GV.... pretty much enough said there lol      * happy for melissa :) *

My roommates are sweet..... i had a great first weekend/week with those girls & Amber ! <3

i Love the Robinson Folk... Todd is my model & he's tight as hell.... actually all the guys are.....yup pretty much

My classes .. so far so good... most of my professors are super cool.... my music teacher is HILARIOUS !!!! makes that 3 hours go by sorta fast lol

Brandy came and visited for like 3 days..... that was definitely a good time... i love her so much.... she's such a cool girl.... i hope i see a lot more of her.... she's a hott sexy bia !

well i've rediscovered some lost feelings..... kinda weird actually.... everyone's assumptions were wrong earlier in the summer... because i honestly did not know exactly what i wanted... but this last month was different ...things changed a lot... and it's been pretty amazing i must say!!! a lil nervous about the whole thing.... but
   " Everytime i try to go, somethin' keeps tellin' me that... Everything's gon be alright " =)

AND ...... CHRIS AND LAUREN ARE COMING TO GRAND VALLEY SOON !!!!!!!!!!! A week & a Half !!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO EXCITED.... probably the happiest girl right now... i miss them so Gosh Darn Much!!!!     =)

alright well i'm home until tuesday.... then back to GV with Nick, Steve, Pryan, Danielle, & Danny .... should be a fun car ride

2morrow hang out with Cris & Lo :)

leave em if you'd like
Good Night =)

.... back to school ?!?.... ALREADY !!

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 04:07:12 GMT

i don't write in this thought pad very much.. and i probably won't too much... with school and work... but we'll see... for now though... i'm just in the mood ya know?!?

So... the week that i spent at GVSU was Perfectly Amazing.... me , tom, and the other volunteers actually got into wheelchairs & participated with the kids at the camp.... and honestly after one day of wheeling my arms were dead tired.... i give those kids SO MUCH credit! they're wonderful people! i actually got teary eyed when we had to leave.. because we all grew a week long bond.... and they felt so special being able to play with us! ......
.... plus spending the week with Tommy was lots of fun.... and Erin, Mike, and his roomates are quite fun.... so that was a great experience all around!

hmmm... so it's almost moving day.. i leave early thursday morning.... well Me and Tom had a realy good talk about leaving last night.... we realized that it's gunna be a lot harder than we expected.... we have to leave our comfort zones..... we can no longer depend on our parents to do our laundry, or make dinner.... and such things that we never really thought about..... but we're got each other...& the rest of the foley gang... we're gunna make it through.... it's gunna be a blast...

...... and the worst part... is leaving the family and missing the fun times.... the good thing is that we can always call..... the hardest thing for me... is my lil sister Vanessa.... she can't just pick up the phone and talk to me..... i am really dreading that & this last week i'ved cried every night just thinking about leaving her.... i'm gunna miss my lil baby girl so much

and of course..... then there's Chris & Lauren.... my Cris & Lo.....i've become sooooo close with those two kids.... i have always stayed close with Chris but never like this.... going from seeing each other everyday to once ever couple of weeks.... is gunna suck! ...and Lo... we lost so much time in the past and we're finally good now .... and i am leaving.... she makes me laugh my chuckles off & i love it...and i know she's there to talk.. Chris & Lauren.... thanks so much for being there to talk or listen.. and most definitely LAUGH.... you guys are the sweetest friends and i appreciate it so much! i love you silly guppys so much & i shall miss you dearly!

i already miss Julie and Lass a ton! we hope to visit them at Purdue.... no no.. we will!!! The last convo me and Ryan had was amazing! i love my hotstuff so much and it's so unreal how much we went through and standing there and remembering it together made me so happy & sad... and then with an "i'll miss you, i love you" and a kiss.... he was gone!

i'm gunna miss others a lot too.... some of them don't even know it... but i will.... it's really a damn shame that things ended the way they did with some people..... things used to be so simple & perfect.... but boy oh boy do thigsn change! well... i miss you guys .... best of luck to you! <3

welll... that's it for now.... i'm off to watching some t.v and then going to bed
dentist appt. in the morning

p.s .... the girl who won America's Got Talent is very good at singing.... but i am a lil disappointed at the results... wish it was someone else... but oh well she's good

Alo Cris?...

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 00:24:50 GMT

So me and my parents went up to Port Austin on Sunday to spend the day at the Hoff's cabin with them and Chris !!! My parents left Sunday night and i ended up staying there for three days! lol

I had a BLAST with my Chris & Tommy!!!! ... we Shopped & Ate & went Swimming & Ate & watched SEVEN lol & got Ice Cream & walked the town / beach & Ate lol .... and _{never stopped laughing !!!!}

The Reesers came to visit & we all hung out!

The Hoff's are the greatest ....Momma Hoff is funny as hell & we jammed to Travis Tritt while cookin rice in the microwave lmao! & after a very fun night she nicely said....
"What stays in Caseville.. Stays in Port Austin"
What happens in Caseville... Stays in Port Austin !!!!! lmao!!!!

And then Chris, Tom, & i... ended each night on the beach, chattin & Such ;)
i <3 Mexico for 1 refreshing reason... and Brandy IS a fine girl lmao!!

this week is kinda stuffed.... 2morrow & Friday i work... Thursday i have orientation at GVSU & maybe out that night... & Saturday... two grad. parties & Tommy comes home

GVSU in 5 days =)




                                                                                                                       leave em

i'm bringin sexy back....yup

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 03:01:26 GMT

... ohhhh shiiiiiitttt.....

So i FINALLY got my housing info from GVSU!!! i'm double room with three other girls! so we'll see how that goes.... unfortunately i'm in Kisler (Buh) and it's community bathrooms (Buuhh) but whatevs.
... got the friends still =)

My grad. party was SPECTACULAR!!! i had so much fun! i'm glad lots of peoples came ... it was very nice ... thanks to all !... i hope everyone had a good time as well !_{^{thanks to chris & tom for all the help setting up!!! =)}}

New people at work.... Kyle is cool ....haven't met the other 3 people!!!   kinda cool yeah!?!

Ummm... i go to Caseville 2morrow with my momma and fasha ... and lil Vanessa!!! goin shopping with my fam. for a lil bit and then spending the day with Chris & Tom   =)

GVSU next Sunday !!!!!!! 8 days     =)    =)     =)

wish upon Badoody =)     lmao

                  ....as the spanish would say COMMENT-O !!! =)

Same Old Shit..... Different Day.....

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 22:30:09 GMT

SoOoOoOo.... Me and Jeff did go and see Pirates 2.... we agreed that it wasn't as good as the first one for a few reasons lol .... but we definitely had a good time... some good laughs and talkin there!

So my grad. party is this Saturday the 15th of July lol ... ALL are welcomed... so do come

bad news about the party satruday... is that Stacey goes to ~~Caseville SUNDAY~~ :(    ... not fun! for two weeks... and to make it worse... when she gets back i leave for Grand Valley for a week... 3 weeks without that girl... :( gunna SUCK

... Positive thing is that a week at GV will be lots of fun... i'm stayin with Erin Hoff... and she's sweet... so that'll be cool.... and Tommy is going... so i mean i guess that'll be OK ... lol... j/k it'll be lots of fun !....excitement for that

CHRIS and LAUR ....    =(   i will miss both of thee DEARLY    =(

Goin out with Colbs tonight.... so i'm out... have a good one kids ....

Stac.... i will miss you much... have fun... but you better miss me back... at least a lil lol.... love you best friend of mine



                                                                                                        leaveeeeee onnnneeeeee

Flamers....

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 00:51:03 GMT

Pirates 2 comes out Friday... me and Jeff are goin to see it.... sitting two seats apart   yeah?!?   lol

smile to Kara for being so strong today !!!   :)

Steve Yzerman retired
Ben Wallace... is going to play for Chicago
Sad day in Detroit

Well Grand effing Valley.... is so lameeee!!!    i just want my effing dorm assignment....
.... yeah i write about that place in every post... it's getting old.... but i'd be done if they'd just effing SEND IT !!!

annnyyyways... i decided to stay home tonight so my parents would get off my back about me going out every night ~~(which is true... but still lol)~~ .... and it was a sucky decision.... i'm bored as FizUCK

Foreworks at Tom's yesterday... but pretty much played with Colin... he's just my favorite lil kiddy ! so cute

Fourth of July 2morrow... Work WITH JAIME...funniest guy everrr, then to my Aunt's for dinner, then NATALIA'S for fireworks and such.... might have to drive 'cause i have something for Dan ... and i might bring it to him !!!....

...... speaking of the famous D.wick.... i wish i could've played soccer with him tonight !!! bummer man

Hopefully Cedar Point with a bunch of people on Thursday.... yeah that'd be nice.... and Nick shall be my riding partner.... us siblings that don't like rides must stick together

Stac family and friended me... she got both lol ... so thank-you to her

and last but not least ... he that has stolen my heart   =)
.... i honestly think i'd give all the money i have saved since i was born....
to spend a day with and take a picture as a momento.... with ...
Cristiano Ronaldo....i think i'm in love with his gorgeous face and Soccer skills... yeah

^{even though Italy should win the} ^{WC championship !} Chris, Laur, & Tom came over for a bit.... we went and got Ice Cream .... anything involving food is always good lol good time.....



ok well i'm done with this.... k bye

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The Triangle is back in action...

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 19:26:09 GMT

So another day goes by and grand valley and has YET to inform me about where i shall reside at grand valley.... or right now HORRIBLE VALLEY !!!

ok i haven't worked since saturday... and i have to work tonight... 6-10:30.... i think it's gunna suck cause i've had such a long break from it.... no Jaime no Nick.... oh NO !!!

yeah yeah i've been hangin out with CHRIS a lot ... well pretty much everyday...
yup we're THAT gay... but at least we don't hoe each other out or talk shit ya?!?

Tom's at Mike's cottage for the weekend... so Me and Chris are incomplete... Dios Mio

Been talking to Dave a lot lately.... that's been cool... <3 the kid... he makes me laugh
one moonsadow for me !!!

Love my Stacey ... thanks for the offer to rescue me!!! lol i got you too... we're sunny girls !

upcoming events:

July 4th - Natalia's for fireworks
July 6th - Me and Chris beat the shit outta some shit
July 15th- my grad partay

Well Chris is over... we're home alone.... and him and I are gettin our drink on....we need it... it's been a rough week....

.... after maybe we'll smoke a bowl, eat some asian soy salad from Mickey D's...and round those bases... HomeRun baby!!!

feel free to comment.... we're kinda busy... might not respond right away

let yur hair down.... square dance ....

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 05:58:20 GMT

i'm not even mad... i'm impressed :)

this is going to seem random but i <3 kara and good things need to happen to her.... she most definitely can not die
i honestly hope that she feels better really soon... 'cause more people care about her than she may think!

grrr on Grand Valley... 'cause i didn't get my housing info. yet .... and ^{EVERYONE ELSE DID} !!!!

yeah but i went to Alex's grad. pary today...   =)     saw some St.Anne guys! love em and miss the good old days.... and i miss playing indoor with Jay and Joey

yeah i found out that Mark Raphael and Chris Young are going to GVSU !!!! This made me very happy... can't wait... they say the party's in their dorm so i'm there    =)

umm Nick's grad. party was a good time.... i'm SWEET at volleyball .... Lass, Kator and Tom will definitely agree lol....

.... went to Sarah's with Stacey...ND guys and other lovely people were there... we were gunna stay the night.... but long story ........we ended up back at Nick's for the night !!!

... loved the hang out & chat around the campfire!
_{.... pretty much i <3 ryan lass... meet you behind the tree.. it's goin down !!!!}

toot God dammit would you SHUT UP
one parrot bay keys on the tent
for our country
moving couches

i love you stacey... any time... we needed some bonding time.... xoxo

Chris encanta y soy

hey Tom did you hear that people are soooo cool sometimes ?!?... i heard it... especially when they know ~~EXACTLY~~ what they're talking about
^{lay off his LJ please... you're so wrong}

                                                        you know you wanna comment... do it

Cool Beans

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 04:03:57 GMT

listening to All My Life... 'cause it reminds me of Dion and it always makes me feel happy and calm! ^{<3 him}Well working at Aero is going good..... the only bad part is that i work almost everyday ... and well _{it sucks} but i'm making good money so yeah....

Jamie is officially only working twice a week now   :(   kinda sucks 'cause well he's very fun! gunna miss him! But i still have the others   :) ...

... i worked at Oakland mall Aero today...
...didn't like it all that much.... but i saw JEFF HEALEY and KEVIN !!!!!!!!    :)   yay for that !

AND THEN ... i saw ^CHARLIE... and Anna and Leah TOO !!!!

Jeff's grad. party was very cute and :) for Joe's  lmao!!!...
                                                                                                     ...can't wait till Alex's !

.... Chris and Lauren- chopsticks, soy, and fortune cookies... enough said! hahaha

~~Stupid things~~ yet again... but it's our last high school summer and we're stayin strong! if you need someone... speed dial 4 i believe! lol lyl

well it's Papa's Day today... thought of Bryan Kloss ... :-/    wish things we're normal !

... wish things were normal with everyone...but tupac ^(haha) once said
                I'd love to go back to when we played as kids
               But Things change and That's just the way it is
                          Things will never be the same
                               That's just the way it is

l'm not about to give up these friends.... the ones who have stuck by my side ... when everyone else ~~bailed~~.... just because stupid rumors are spreading!

So rachAEL i love you and we got <3 you're wonderful and you're my girl!

                                                                         i mean i guess you can comment

these boots were made for walking.....

Thu, 15 Jun 2006 20:06:52 GMT

alright tighty....

So... i feel very bad for melissa 'cause she has toncilitis... and since i am just recovering from viral toncilitis.... i understand how she feels.... and boy oh boy does it SUCK ! lmao ! i'm sorry lil one... feel better and i love you

hmm... Melissa, Tom, Pryan, and Nick have all gone to GVSU freshmen orientation and i haven't :( upset lol ... but positive note... Dorn assignments ar coming soon!!!!! :) ... happy... and nervous that i'll get a bad roommate ! :-/

yeah the friends are doin good .... Jeff you're pretty sweet

i've been hanging out with Chris, Tom, and Lauren a lot lately.... it's been a pretty funny few weeks!

_{Big Momma's house 3 is loaded with all kinds of things... but it's kinda^"shitty"}_lmgbo

.. i've seen Chris and Tom ^{EVERY DAY} for like the past 3 weeks lol ...and today Chris is at UDM's orientation...i probably won't see him... and i'm really depressed lol... hope he comes home safe... Don too!

i've had tom's ipod for like a week or so ... i've become attatched and i think i want one very much so... lol

Colbs randomly came over last night... it's definitely been a while...some good laughs there...

...alright... i'm out ...gotta new book to read ... ME reading... yea Rachel Reed is a bad influence on me lol

Comment or somethin cool like that <3

England can play great futbol....

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 19:03:06 GMT

So it's been nothing but grad. parties this weekend... lol lovely times!

Pryan, Lass, Melissa, Mandy, and Kloss had some good ones! Love seeing people like that !!! Yesterday was a very fun day spent with Lauren, Natalia, Tom and of course...my limo driver Chris!!! lmao.... what a day of laughs at the parties and my house and such! Loved it!

Stacey, my dear, i love you.... i'm sorry about softball.... but you're amazing and had a great season! i loved watching you! Congrats on a good one babe! love you best friend of mine!

Today was my first day of work at ^Aero.... got to work with Sabrina, Keisha, and Jaime.... even though Jams screwed up my register lol!

I'm about to travel around with Chris Tom and Pryan to grad. parties! should be fun!

A little dedication to an amazing year of Foley Girls Soccer
_{* B.Kloss showed me this once....}

The Soccer Field...
.... is a place you go to Get Away from troubles in school, the house, guys, whatever...

When you're playin' all of your troubles are gone, You're invincible!
It's where you Live ...your house is just a place you go between games

It's Life

yeah def. gunna miss Foley Soccer and the '06 season! _{<3 seniors}just a few reasons why our team is amazing and won disrticts and made it to Regional Finals

If you need a perfect cross Nikki will do it
Bush can man mark anyone
Rach has so much heart and will play through anything
Alex can dice anyone, anytime
Ang is a beast and will take you out if need be
Stets is unstoppable... yeah pretty much
Linds can't be beat on a 50/50
Nothing gets past Allison
if by chance it does... Haley owns that shit
Kristie can run anyone down
Ellen can dribble through a whole team
Amber always comes up with the ball
V is a speed demon and will ruin any player
Julie is always in the right place at the right time
Sammy never gets beat
Kator looks anerexic... but can take out HUGE players
Annie crutches better than anyone i know

we're pretty much just sweet.... great season ladies!

well well well... we meet again

Tue, 30 May 2006 18:56:04 GMT

Spring.... it rings Soccer

Well Soccer Districts 2nd round.... are thursday at FOLEY ... you should DEFINATELY come and support!    ... we meet Prep yet again

hmm... i must say.... the Pistons are a ^{VERY BIG} disappointment   .....
but Palace Vision on saturday was a blast with Stac, Julie, P.C. , Marty, Tom, and Kevin

Don's grad. party earlier that day was a good time... his house is gorgeous.... i've always loved it !

Sunday was a rather fun day! Me, Stac, Kev, P.C. Tom, and Marty went Disc Golfing... good laughs there.... then we went to the mall for a lil bit.... and then we were off Schwartz's party ! that was a good time also.... Bush and the hotdog were classic lol !

... after that we all went to Coldstone and chilled for a lil bit *

.... yeah i've been hanging out with the ND guys and Stac a lot lately.... it's been lots of fun ! my frisbee skills are most definately improving !

Yeah... um last night i had a good phone convo. with Donald .... it was good to be talking and fixing things... this whole thing isn't worth throwing away 9 Amazing years of friendship.... so yeah

..... the poor baby is getting his wisdom teeth pulled today... so i'm going over there after practice and such with some SOUP lol

that's about it ...... Josh is over and he brought food.... so i'm out .... <3 later loves

_{Oh... P.S..... a little clarification .... ^{truth be told}... i like me & still love him ... i'm not ready to move on... i just wanna have a good summer ! .... me and tom are just friends.... no more rumors and assuming that i like someone.... PLEASE!   :)}

It's that bounce right here....

Sat, 27 May 2006 16:44:51 GMT

_{if i listened long enough to you i'd find a way to believe that it's all true....knowing that you lied staright faced... while i cried! Still i look to find a reason TO BELIEVE}

Randomness.... _{inspired by ^TraceyMarie Terenzi LMAO}

We're all done and graduated.... holler to '06 <3 ya'll
Summer is finally here... i'm oober excited

Pistons are sweet and they better win it all again
Grand Valley still on my mind.... nervous and excited
I love stacey.. still miss florida and things about it... <3
Soccer is amazing AND we're amazing 'cause We Believe 12-4-2 bitches... <3 my ladies
June 2nd is a much needed night! <3 girls
So many graduation parties.... not enough time or gas money lol
Certain things in my life are getting better.... good thing
My Grad. Party is July 7th ... you're invited... so come :)
I like Melissa lol ... she's my lil one
Brian and Tom are actually gay... they made a baby named JACK ... last name Gough or Hoff ;) lol

and lastly and probably most random and POINTLESS..... Billy Joel says "We didn't start the fire lmao

Palace Vision tonight with the peeps <3 Stons

American Eagle once told me... LIVE YOUR LIFE

Tue, 23 May 2006 20:43:36 GMT

OK no anonymous comments

i think maybe you're just afraid to hear what people think ...

... and it's really sad that you say people should have left us alone... maybe you should not have listened to them... screw the dating part.... 9 years of friendship just got thrown out for nothing _{'cause i never did anything like this to you}_{Club night} can't come soon enough!_{<3 Sar and the girls!}

Mon, 22 May 2006 01:15:01 GMT

...hmmm.....

OK random thoughts

* I can NOT wait until ^{Grand Valley} .... i'm not saying i'm gunna love it.... but for right now i need to get away..... so i'm really _craving that moving day ... plus i'm kinda excited that Melissa, Tom, and Pat are going !!! and my Brian of course

* I think it's amazing that people can be sooo insensitive.... i don't get how you could lie to someone for so long .... and i also don't get how people can pretend to be someone elses friend and pretend to care about them

* Stacey is amazing and i love her.... she's the best friend ever! i'm definately gunna miss her... two words stac ESTAN AQUI .... good times! ;) it'll be our dirty little secret! ;)

* I'm so glad the ND guys came to Foley... they're the nicest people and me and my fellow 6th hour priv. peoples feel like we've known them for longer than a year

* I love Julie and i think she deserves better than what she's getting ... she's just the most beautiful girl ever

* Nikki is so smart... i should have listened to her a long time ago..... there's a reason why she got all academic lol

* I loved my surprise party... some people are just sweet and make my day.... our lil movie trip was pretty much hilarious....
.... patrick ryan you crack me up! all lights on... cause that's how i'm sleeping! :)

* Brian Gough makes me smile! B Weezy you're amazing and you're doing NOTHING wrong ~ except raising my text message bill! but you're worth 10 cents a message! i know you love her... keep working at it!

* And then soccer.... well our teams flippin unbelievable and Marian can literally suck this! everyone played sweet.... Amber had a sweet assist to me and Kelly had a sweet goal to tie! FYI...as Rach would say.... off their team, not a corner, George is a FAGGOT ! lol :)
_{.... prep 2nd round districts .... bring it bitches!}Tom came to visit me 'cause he's sweet... and he actually cares about me ... good surprise.... it's nice to have a TRUE friend!

<3 K bye

Oh Mrs. Haynes

Fri, 05 May 2006 12:18:08 GMT

Since Chris keeps crying i figured i'd updated.... happy Creeeese?!? lol

Leave your name and:
1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours

_-> Once Upon a Time <-_

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 20:13:55 GMT

...hmmm.....

* So Snowball .... well i love the friends ... but the night weird for a lot of people... so no more comments there *

> This weekend was so ^rushed and ^full.... school and work on ^friday, snowball ^saturday, work and soccer _yesterday!

... our soccer game was at ¹⁰ and i didn't get home and stuff till like ^10:30ish and then i showered and stuff and went to be waaay late! ... so i def. did not go to school today.... which is gunna _{kick my ass} 'cause i hate being behind in school....

... but yeah... i hafta do my _{research paper} tonight and im not excited .. that's about it /

ONE Love Bella... you're magnificent ... thanks yet again

</hold\3

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 01:30:15 GMT

... hmmm...

* Well alrighty it's been a roller coaster of a break *

- _Thursday i went up to ^{Grand Valley} ! Spent the day with Don which was sweet and _ABSOLUTELY loved the campus! It's just flippin amazing... that's al i need to say there! Sucky weather, good food, great company, amazing campus ... all in all ... not too shabby

_Friday - I had a wonderful night with ^Don ... it was just a big surprise from the beginning... getting all dressed up and going out was just sweet and very different ~ He never ceases to amaze me ~ _{Love him so}

_Saturday ~ I visited Adrian ~ I def. did not like... just a ^negative all together... but spending the day with _Erynn and _Schwartz was fun! We just joked around and made the day better then the campus lol ~ Sum of the day = ^{Vending Machine says FILL ME} !!! lmao ~ I worked saturday night and went to B Dub's with Sarah, Chris and Don .... _{Friends Fun and Food}:)

_Sunday ~ Went to Chris' aunt's at night with ^Chris, _Sarah,^Meghan, _Jeff, ^Nikki, _Stac, ^Nick, _Lass, ^Kloss_and_Don... gotta <3 the friends

Today/night Talked to Donald allll day today... it was too much in fact lol...kidding^{i love you boy} you know it was sweet_<3I've totally given up on_everything.... i've offically lost _{all hope}and all the _{power to care}
I've ^lost so many amazing ^things and ^people in my life...and i just don't have the drive anymore !

I'm sorry to all.... but this is _{me giving up}.... if you're better off _{without me} ... then so be it....

....fyi. _{i love and miss you}and i wish you would ^{stop hurting me}it's just impossible to _{be without you}

... just wanted to say...

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 01:07:32 GMT

* I Love YOU *

... yup you ;) ...

<3 me

Lock it up !

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 01:04:02 GMT

... hmmm.....

* A friend e-mailed me these quotes and i thought they were pretty funny...
... so i figured i'd post em 'cause i'm so stressed and i don't even wanna get into all that ....
...so so so ...

"Ah, yes, divorce, from the Latin word meaning to rip out a man's genitals through his wallet."
Robin Williams

"Instead of getting married again, I'm going to find a woman I don't like and just give her a house."

Rod Stewart

"My mother never saw the irony in calling me a son-of-a-bitch."
Jack Nicholson

"Seven out of ten people suffer from hemmorhoids." Does this mean that the other three enjoy it?
Sal Davino

"See, the problem is that God gives men a brain and a penis, and only enough blood to run one at a time."
Robin Williams

"If your parents never had children, chances are you won't either."
Dick Cavett

"If you cannot read this, please ask the flight attendant for assistance."
United Airlines Flight Safety Brochure

"You tried your best and you failed miserably. The lesson is 'never try'." Homer Simpson

"Police arrested two kids yesterday, one was drinking battery acid, the other was eating fireworks. They charged one and let the other one off."
Tommy Cooper

"I'm not a vegetarian because I love animals, I'm a vegetarian because I hate plants and they're over populated."
A. Whitney Brown

"I'm desperately trying to figure out why kamikaze pilots wore helmets."
Dave Edison

"Now they show you how detergents take out bloodstains, a pretty violent image there. I think if you've got a T-shirt with a bloodstain all over it, maybe laundry isn't your biggest problem.Maybe you should get rid of the body before you do the wash."
Jerry Seinfeld

haha aww got a good chuckle

lots o love

Sat, 21 Jan 2006 23:29:59 GMT

... hmmm...

* alright well i'm gunna hope that this post doesn't turn into a shitload of shitty comments again... 'cause i think i've had enough of anonymous cowards so.... with that being said i have some random venting to do

_ lately i've just been missing some key people in my life and it's been kinda sucky without them ... so this song is kinda what i'm feeling... i'm not missing someone... it's more that i feel drifted apart from some of my amazing friends _

* i don't know if anyone else has ever felt like this but....let it be known that it's just not fun ! *

... it's by NICKELBACK and it's called FAR AWAY

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing

Ode to Pat Ryan

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 17:50:53 GMT

... hmmm .....

* wow so since some people are gay and totally missed the point of the last post and they only said shit about me and Don and Pat which had nothing to do with anything... i'm gunna post something new! ...

... since an anonymous lil bitch said something about Pat Ryan ... and made him feel shitty... i'm gunna make him feel wonderful !

PJ.Ryan I love you oh so much! You are definitely one of my favorite people on the earth! I could name a million reasons why i like you... so a few ... you're so funny it's unbelievable, Y.A.F.D, you imitate mr.freds perfectly, you're laugh itself is hilarious, you're adorable and gorgeous, you always cheer me up whenever i'm down, you talk and listen, you trust me with just about anything, i can trust you with just about everything, our long phone conversations are always amazing, studying with you is so pointless but the laughs are priceless, you make yummy salad, you're my fiance that will one day be by extremely wealthy husband lol, and more...but in a nutshell ...our friendship is precious and i love you!

thanks for not being intimidated by little me...and actually taking time to get to know me... unlike others who just judge. We were meant to become friends at Kairos and it's exciting ! F.Y.I. you and Tommy are the greatest role model of guy best friends ever! :)

everyone could probably agree with most of that stuff, minus the fiance part and maybe the salad lol.... but you're sweet ... so so...

leave a comment and show your love... to one and only Patrick Joseph O'Ryan ;)

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 21:17:32 GMT

...hmmm.....

Alright...well i'm having a bad day so this may seem bitchy...but needs to be said.... so i'm sayin it ...

So i'm posting this for a couple reasons...

* First...i love Pat Ryan and i support most of what he says and does so people need to get off of his balls .....

...and second because it's true ...

... Ok to clarify ... i'm not saying that guys should treat girls like this... but that is what happens! All girls are drama....BUT some are complete bitches....All guys are jerks... BUT some are complete assholes.... it's a scientific fact (lol) ...but anyways yeah...there is a difference! Usually the guys who aren't assholes....just jerks sometimes... get royally screwed... because to them, all they see is complete assholes with beautiful and worth it girls .... but the girls are unhappy and hurt because the guys are, in fact, Assholes !!!

Not all relationships are like this... in fact i'm lucky that mine isn't... and there are a lot of other girls that are just as lucky... NOT to brag like me and Don are perfect.... far from it... cause no two people are perfect..admit it.... but aside from how me and him can sometimes be jerks to each other....he is, in no means, an asshole... i just wanted to say that so no one runs and tells Don i think he's an asshole and treats me like shit..... but...

> Point of fact.... 4 out of 5 people who read this... know a girl who gets treated bad in their relationship and could do much better! And in most situations there is a good guy ... who will only be a jerk sometimes.... waiting for them...

... so screw your "top 5 most attractive guys to date" List... and be with that "will treat you so good.... unbelievable nice , funny as hell, maybe jerk sometimes" guy that deserves you.... a.k.a Pat Ryan lol............Oh AND PLEASE DO COMMENT... ANYTHING GOOD OR BAD YOU HAVE TO SAY... I'd LOVE TO HEAR IT !

girl wants (girl version)
"Pick her up & pretend you're going to throw her in the pool.. she'll scream & fight you but secretly, she'll love it. Hold her hand while you talk. Hold her hand while you drive. Just hold her hand. Look her in the eyes when you talk to her. Protect her. Tell her stupid jokes. Tickle her, even if she says stop. Slow dance with her. When she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her. Let her fall asleep in your arms. Get her mad, then kiss her. Tease her. Let her tease you back. Stay up with her when she's sick. Kiss her forehead. Let her wear your clothes. Kiss her in the rain. And when you fall in love with her, tell her."

What They Go For
"Pick her up & pretend to throw her in the pool...she'll scream and fight you but throw her in anyways and screw up her makeup and then high five all your fellow popped collar buddies. Don't call her. Don't return her calls. Tell your friends how much ass you're getting. Use the words bitch, ho, and slut as frequently as possible. Cheat on her. Cheat on her with a family member. Make her pay for dinner. DO NOT open doors. Forget what I said about not calling her if your Buddies are all passed out and you want some ass at 2am when she has a test the next day. Lie to her. Slow dance with her...after the blonde across the room just grinded the hell out of you right in front of her. And when she falls in love...get the fuck out."

And last thing.... Don't judge someone before you get to know them.... my friends and i are NOT a clique...we're just a some best friends that love to hang out.... there is no V.I.P only thing..... so where we go.. you can to... feel free...the more the merrier.... just remember if it's just to go to someone's house and do nothing...there are parents that only allow so many people.... but other than that...you're invited...

....so this weekend me and pat are going to see a movie and all are invited.... times and date unknown...but ask! :)

....if you don't know everything about everything...then you too, are in some way ignorant...but THANKS!

* Donny i love you so much! I couldn't ask for much better and you're right...you treat me wonderful ... nope we're not perfect... but that doesn't matter... because we love each other and it's proven that we can get through just about anything! Only You <3

... i don't believe you... { PROVE IT }

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 21:38:01 GMT

* WOW !!! Kairos was absolutely A.M.A.Z.I.N.G !!! It was one of the Most memorable parts of highschool and i'm so glad i went... i def. recommend that everyone goes in the future classes and such!

I Love our classsss !!!! My small group was the best... JU-DAH!!! And all the leaders and staff were flippin wonderful... they did awesome !

I know everything won't stay perfect ...but i hope it does, or at least that a lot of it does!

For now... it's "Just Me...Livin the 4th" ~( ryan lass )
Kairos '06
Hidden No More
L.T.4
"Prove It"

Pat Ryan - I love you so much!!! You are an unbelievable person! I'm so glad we talked a lot this week.....i feel like i can already trust you with anything which is rare! YAFD and YABD also, too, as well :) I love u
Lauren - I'm glad we're finally working through this... it's been too long, and i missed it! In one day we were already laughing!...gotta show us somethin! Merry Kwansa~lmgbo! love u
Nikki - You were a sweet roomate !!! Thanks for always talkin to me ....it's great because you can always relate to me and you always know where i'm coming from! love u
Melissa - you're my girl and i love you! You can always tell when something is wrong and you make me tell you lol...which is good! 2+3=4 life love u
Thomas - I'm glad we're getting things fixed...finally...i'm again sorry and i know we're gunna be alright! Thanks for everything these last 4 years ! Love u
Charlie- You're a great guy and definitely the nicest ever! I can't see a time when you were mean lol! Thanks for the compliments!!! : ) love u

Stac - My best friend... we can work through anything and we can't ever give up...can't be without you...Admired means something ... OneLoveBella
Jenn - I have so much respect for you and i hope we stay strong and stay close 'cause i love it and you are such a sweetheart ! i love you
Don - I am so proud of you... i think you are right for me and that is all that matters ... thank-you and never leavin .... We're so In Love for all the right reasons!
Bryan -I'm so glad i have you as a friend... you're such a good person! "seeing you sad..."...i'm Always here ! Thanks... Love u
Ray - Thank you for being there for me since forever ago and you know "i got you"! I have so much trust for you and that's not gunna change! Love u
Chris - I know you always got my back and know that i always got yours! Thank you for always being one to care... it means a lot! Encanta tu!
Jeff - I know that i can always come to you so thanks for always reminding me.... same to you anytime ... anyday ! You give the best hugs! Love u
Nick - The best BIG Brother in the entire world! I love that we've become so close because you always come to me when i'm down! WINDOW !!!
Ryan - I know that you are always looking out for me....Just a simple hand hold tells all ... you give the best advice and i know i can talk to u about anything! love u hotstuff

You guys are the { BEST } Best Friends I could ask for !!! Thank you all for being "YOU" !!! I love you all to death!!!!